And I guess I realized at that moment that I really did love her. Because there was nothing to gain, and that didn't matter.
We didn't talk about anything heavy or light. We were just there together. And that was enough
And I thought about how many people have loved those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope they feel it's enough. I really do because they've made me happy. And I'm only one person.
He's a wallflower. You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.
We accept the love we think we deserve.
This moment will just be another story someday.
Enjoy it. Because it's happening.
It's strange because sometimes, I read a book, and I think I am the people in the book.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
It's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don't want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it too.